So I just told someone, for the very first time, when they asked “what I do” that “I teach yoga”!!!
It felt really crazy to me because leading up to this weekend I felt so awkward even mentioning the fact that I was doing this training. I mean, it was even really weird when I had to talk with the other teachers at the Y to arrange times next month for me to shadow their classes. It felt almost presumptuous, like I was claiming to be a yoga expert by saying that I wanted to teach it.
Obviously, at my two 8hr days of training this weekend I did not learn anything about yoga that was earth shattering. I’ve been practicing yoga for three years now and—being the avid learner that I am—I’ve constantly worked to absorb anything and everything related to yoga that I came across. I’ve read books, learned the lingo, consciously observed/reflected, and delved into the culture as much as I possibly could. So while I picked up plenty of new ideas and tips this weekend, it was a small amount in comparison to my accumulated mountain (or, more accurately, my mole-hill) of yogish knowledge (no I don’t know if that’s really a word lol).
And yet, at the same time I still know I added something huge to my mole hill this weekend. I think the best word to sum it up would be “confidence”.
There were a lot of people at my training who had more experience than I do with teaching (though not necessarily with yoga) and at first I felt like I sounded so jumbled and shaky compared to them when I cued. I’ve always had a little bit of nervousness when it comes to public speaking, sometimes I start to shake and sometimes my voice does too. But as the time went on, with encouragement from my peers and the simple act of practicing speaking to a group, I definitely made so much progress in a short amount of time.
I still don’t feel like I’m “ready”, but I know that with time to prepare myself and practice (both alone and in a group co-teaching) that when the time comes I’m going to be able to stand up at the front and lead a class with clarity and confidence. I can tell because when someone asks me “what I do” I tell them with clarity and confidence that “I teach yoga.”